I have been wanting to start a blog for quite some time now. And with Jake’s urging (and technical assistance!), here goes!
It’s interesting how God convicts our hearts in ways we never would have imagined. Just under a year ago, I knew I was about to become a mother. What I did not know, however, was that the tiny baby growing inside of me would be used by the Lord to transform my heart.
For several months after Evan was born I longed for the Old Steph. I could not wait for her to return, and I excitedly planned the things she would do. She would have her body to herself! She would have her time to herself! Oh the possibilities!!!
As the months passed and the Old Steph failed to return, it dawned on me that perhaps, just maybe, I did not want the Old Steph to return after all. While she certainly was free to do as she pleased, she had never lived to serve another person. Instead, she unabashedly served herself.
Today I am thankful to say that I no longer pine away for the Old Steph. Do I miss her sometimes? Of course! Have I managed to get in contact with her? I admit that I have. I have even gone so far as to invite her to visit for a few hours here and there. By the grace of God, she never stays long, and when she leaves I am left with profound peace.
2 Corinthians 5:17 Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come.